Is your brain like mine???

I could only imagine what people would think of me if they knew even half of the daily thoughts that slip in and out of my head. I am constantly running on overload. I know it, but am beginning to believe it is hard wired in me rather than being a choice I make.

I am sure that I have unrealistic targets and in doing so set myself up for failure. I set my alarm earlier then I need to, hit snooze every single time and then get annoyed at myself for not being able to squeeze in a morning walk. I plan to spend the late night putting into action my big ideas and then fall asleep watching NCIS with pencil in hand waking to find another blank page in front of me. I list the things that I need to do each day only to realise that my list is bigger then the 24 hours I have been given. STREUTH!!!! How do I achieve all the things that are making my brain bulge?

A good friend made the very simple suggestion of just saying no to the multitude of tasks I take on. More often than not yes seems to blurt out before I even have a chance to think. I have always been the type of person to put up my hand when help is needed for the pure fact that I actually enjoy it. I'll whinge and whine and stress about trying to do more than family, work and house which is a huge challenge in itself, but I can't help feel a real sense of achievement when I have given to the community in some way. I have always said that giving in itself is giving to yourself, for the feeling of it far outweighs any other negative emotion.

I have this need to strive for perfection. To be the perfect mother, the perfect wife, perfect daughter, employee, friend, committee member. To have the perfect house, the perfect life and find the perfect niche that is waiting for me. There is only one problem with this perfect plan... I am not perfect and my guess is your reading this and feel the same way too.

It's not that we don't try ridiculously hard or that we don't give it our absolute all, it's the pure simple fact that if you have so many things on your plate it is impossible to be 100% fantastic at all of them and that is okay!! I relish in striving, trying, challenging myself and grabbing the huge bundle of life offerings that fly past me. There is so much the world has to offer us if only we would open our eyes to see it and our hands to take hold. 

The challenge? Accepting me for me. Not the imaginary belief of who I should be in my head because she is impossible, and I would suggest so perfect she boarders on obsessive compulsive! It's okay to set goals to better myself as long as they are realistic and achievable.

So what I would like to know is - is your brain like mine? Do you spend more time imagining the perfect person you think you should be rather than just being the perfectly imperfect person that you are?

Hayley xxx